I'm Tired.

Yes, I Fucking Am.

Screw This Shit.

I know not many people actually read my blog, but sometimes i kinda like it that way.

Why? Well I can rant and release tension here.

Dont you just feel like freezing time, sometimes?

Pausing at that very happy moment of your life, past forgotten and future not feared. 

For me, I'm a carefree easy going chillax slacky girl and most people know that.

I seldom wished time froze, well actually, never.

I just live life the way it goes and remind myself that someday it'll be over.

Right now, i just wanna freaking freeze time.

I dont wanna go to college.

Hell, I'm actually scared of the future.

I'm eighteen, graduated, unemployed and my highest qualification is SPM.

I've been looking for a college, now trap between 2.

INTI College, Penang. 

Segi University, Kuala Lumpur.

The initial plan was to move to KL, stay with my Aunt.

Move from this little island that to me is no more exciting.

Run away from fucking family dramas.

Go to a place where no one knows me and have a fresh start.

Be myself and not be judged based on my past.

But now im totally having second thoughts.

Who do i turn to when i need a shoulder to cry on?

I've got to be on my best behavior even when im at home.

I've gotta be independent.

And most of all, the people that are more like my family than my actual family, The awesome church choir people.

I might sound all holy being in a church choir and all.

Im not. Theres a reason im in.

They are the last people who will actually judge.

They are amusing, they actually care.

They are the reason I'm so excited to go to church.

All the weird funny people with our energetic songs.

Segi KL, pros: fees are affordable, having a room all to myself, freedom, my privacy, having a clean slate, getting to meet new people, having a gym and a swimming pool at the apartment which is motivation for me to lose weight, college surrounded by 8 shopping malls, a friend from penang to keep me company in college, living in a city, Aunt & Uncle & 2 lill cousins to keep me company and reduce my homesick-ness.

cons: the pros of going to segi KL and INTI penang weighs the same to me.

INTI Penang, pros: not leaving penang.

cons: the fees are double Segi's, Its so freaking far from my house, dangerous for me to drive all the way there from tanjung bunga, a 45 min-1hr+ drive (one way) for a 2hrs-6hrs class, everyday.

Why is it that everytime i finally set my mind straight about going to KL, there'll be one person convincing me deeply to not go?

Back when i didnt have to worry about the future.

I have 3 days to figure out what is worth leaving behind.

MAY: Week 1 & 2.

7th May 2012

Happy 3rd Year Anniversary to Jon and I.

Wow, 3 years, how to celebrate?

Most people would have expensive dinners, dress to impress and gifts that cost a fortune.
Well, we did it differently.

Mostly because Jon has exams.

Had lunch in my room, watching Gossip Girl and eating Qeusadillas & Brownies made by Cai Ling.

It was freaking good.

Spent the whole day nua-ing.

As for dinner, we had Japanese @ Edo Ichi, Island Plaza.

Made by Cai Ling. Totally worth it! 

  

 

 Gifts from Him  

My Boyfriend of 3 Years. <3

The Blogger.

 ♥

 

 

13th May 2012

Happy Mother's Day to all the Beautiful Mothers all over the world! 

Had a small celebration with the Family @ Coffee Island.

Before that, a simple lunch @ My Grandmother's.

 

 

Perfect Weekend.

Okay so it started with a Friday.

I passed my car exam! 

Congrats Malaysia, you now have an extra Penangite Woman Driver! 

Muahahahahahahahahha.

Spent rest of the day at home watching HIMYM w/ the boyfriend.

Then Bak Kut Teh for dinner! My fav yum yum yum!

Saturday.

Was suppose to babysit Hailey & PJ at Straits Quay while they have drama classes but Aunty Swee Leng tagged along so after dropping them, we headed to this Nestle Convention thingy where they were celebrating their 100th Anniversary.. 

Free food free drinks free ice cream everywhere!

Had some light bites.

After an hour, we got Hailey & PJ and headed to Papa Rich for Lunch w/ the whole Yeoh Family & the Toh's.

Then went back to the Nestle thing for more free bites :3

Later at night, went to the SPCA Charity Dinner @ Equatorial Hotel, batu ferringhi. 

 

 

 

 

 

Kiddies @ their cookie designing comp!

 

  

 Mr Trooper.

We are so ulu.

 

McGrory Sisters.

 

 Stole 24 boxes of Milo & 40 ice cream cones. :)

 

 

 Won this during the lucky draw!

TashaA

xxx